It makes it harder when there is no real good reason for it. Or reason you can understand.
It hurts when someone dies. But more so when they're dead because you being alive wasn't enough for them to keep going. When someone deliberately chooses to leave your life, it hurts more then when they didn't have a choice in it.
At least. Thats what I think anyway.
And I'm not really sure that there's a solution to the sadness. You just have to try to make space in your life for MORE good and beautiful things. And acknowledge them, and celebrate them... and just keep reminding yourself that, it's not your fault. Sometimes people are just the way they are. And nothing you could have ever done, ever could have changed that.
Sometimes people make decisions, both consciously, and subconsciously, to leave you. And I guess you sometimes have to just take it on the shoulders and add it to the book, the story you're going to share with your grandchildren some day. All this is just another chapter to your story.
Because in the end, you can't control other people. Not matter how much you try or might want to. You can only control yourself and your future, and your actions. You're only your own author.
truth.
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