The Post you Probably Don't Want to Read.

Problems. 

I got ninety nine problems but a serious problem ain't one!

I mean, we ALL have problems obviously. I just seem to be deliciously free of important ones at the moment. 

So I thought it a good idea to acknowledge this.

My current problems include:

1) Trying to distinguish between the Asian women in my class and acknowledge them individually by name when they catch me off campus. I hope this doesn't sound too racist. I just honestly can't tell!

- 'oh god, is this one Candice? or is it Pema? crap crap crap'
'....hiiiiii' *in my awkward, scrunched shoulder, tilted manner*

2) Wondering why this extremely short girl is trying to be friends with me.

- We see life from two entirely different spectrums! What on earth can she hope to think we have in common?! She views a tub of nutella as a serious eating challenge! I view it as a birthright!

3) Wondering why 89% of all the guys remotely interested in me are excruciatingly weird. Not even in an endearing weird way. Just like... 40 year old busker kind of weird.

- Is this a vibe I'm giving off? Must remedy!

4) Wondering if I should be more stressed about uni work

-Why aren't I more stressed about this? Oh god. I must be doing something wrong!! Wait. I'm only in 2 days a week and I have about 8 weeks of holidays this semester. I'll be fine.

5) Wondering why I've been suspended from twitter.

- I've literally had the account for less than 24 hrs. I must be a real twittering badass!!!

6) I literally want to do everything. How do I do this without getting sick? Also my calendar looks like a tetris game

- How do I fit everything into my life? Which events are the dependable, easily allotted squares and which ones are the horrific zig zags, moving at high speed? How many vitamin C chews should I be devouring in a day. 12? Does 12 sound about right? Should my urine be this colour??

Sorry. That's gross.

BUT, problems wise, that's about it for me.

It wasn't always this way, which is why I'm trying to revel in it now I suppose. Highschool was full of worries:

Who are my friends? Am I popular? Why don't they like me? Why am I so angry all the time? Why am I so sad all the time? Why do I have to know this? What am I going to do after school? What if I smell funny and don't know about it?!!

And I imagine when I finish this degree I'll go through my quarter life crisis. The one where you've finally got a job and started to settle into 'life'. You get past that initial hue of excitement and then start to ask yourself the big questions

Do I really want this job for the rest of my life? Do I have balance? Am I still moving 'forward' or have I stopped? Am I too old to still be taking selfies in the mirror? When is too young to start buying 'age defying' creams?

I don't think problems ever really leave us. They just hang about for a certain period of time and keep us on our toes, and then we exchange them for new ones when we enter another stage of our lives. When we don't have problems it means we've gotten too good at the stage we're already at and that it's time to move on. They're the challenges in our stories which make our character's develop and become more interesting, more resilient, more intelligent.

So anyway. I'll admit that my lack of problems does stem from the fact that I'm still in the confortable schooling system, living off the backs of my parents. But all that is going to end in 6 months. After I graduate I'll be thrust into a new world all over again so I just wanted to make note here (mostly for me so that I remember this time) that there was a time once when I did not have problems (and god knows, after my 1st half of this year, I deserve it!)

I mastered the ancient art of the Sydney Bus system.
I have not locked myself out for a good 6 months now, nor have I had another cockroach fly into my mouth.
I am (still!) the top of the food chain.
I am happy and (mostly) healthy, and pain free.
Most importantly, I'm surrounded by fun people who love me. 

In fact, the only legitimate problem I have is that I don't get to spend enough time with any of them.

And that's it.

Thanks Life.